Haisss. I don't know what is happening to me recently.
I feel that i'm not myself. Haissss.
Who can tell me what to do???

Everything is not going right, everything went sooo wrong.
I felt so lonely when i'm at home, keep thinking those things i shldn't. Haiis.

R/s is not going smoothly recently. I've changed.
to me now, r/s isn't impt to me anymore.
my first priority is friends, result, work.
I don't know. People grow up &i'm sure the thinking will change.
Sorry if my words hurt you severely, i don't mean it.
But i just don't want to hide from you anymore.
One day i still have to tell you.
Afterall we have been together going to 2years, but at this stage.
i can't possible give up, butbutbut no matter what now, i can't change my mind, my thinking.
i've neglect you recently, yea i know. but i can't help myself.
i feel stress up, i hate to see this way.
tell me what to do. i don't dare to face you, i'm afraid i will cry.
hearing what had happen, i wish i can be by yourside taking care of you.
but my mind kept thinking of how the way i hurt you.
I can't forgive myself. i never treat you the way that i shld.
&&all the past keep appearing my mind.
how you hurt me &everything. i know you changed alot just for me.
i don't need you to change cause of r/s, it's aint worth.
nothing last. my thinking is still same, since the say we are together.
NOTHING LASTS FOREVER. But for you, it's different.
haiss, i dont know what i;m talking now.

Since the day we are together, i told myself it's a new life for me.
but somehow, someway goes wrong.
i can't make you happy, you can't make me happy.
i can't make you the happiest guy, you can't make me the happiest girl.
i can't give you what u want, yet making yourself to change for me.
yes, tell me i'm SELFISH, admit it. I admit i'm selfish.
Sometime i think i'm too young to be in love, i never know what is true love &i start to fall in love.
i know you wish me to write about u in my blog.
but sorry to say i always fail to write about you. i always make u sad &not happy.
everytime when you need me the most, i never once be there.
when i need you the most, you never once be here.
haiiissss. how i wishh everytime when my friends told me how sweet &&how long our r/s lasted, i can smile happily.
cause it's not sweet inside. everytime you hide things from me, i hide things from you.
your empty promises, you lies, my broken promise, my lies.
your empty promises is way too far for me to be happy.
i doubt u know what empty you have gave me.
everytime i wish you promises is real. you promise and you do it.
never once. i'm sure i told you many time.
i don't need you to change for me but just you promises.
everytime is only i tell you then you know, why can't u know yourself??
haissss. there's tooo many thing i want to tell you.
but afterall, it's my fault. i can't blame you any further.
this r/s which had turn into coldness it's all my fault, the one who caused it.


Unfaithful

Story of my life
Searching for the right
But it keeps avoiding me
Sorrow in my soul
Cuz it seems that wrong
Really loves my company

He's more than a man
And this is more than love
The reason that the sky is blue
But clouds are rolling in
Because I'm gone again
And to him I just can't be true

And I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dyin'

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Every time I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer

I feel it in the air
As I'm doin' my hair
Preparing for another date
A kiss upon my cheek
As he reluctantly
Asks if i'm going to be out late
I say I won't be long
Just hanging with the girls
A lie I didn't have to tell
Because we both know
Where I'm about to go
And we know it very well

Cause I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...a murderer

Our Love...his trust
I might as well take a gun and put it to his head
Get it over with
I don't wanna do this
Anymore
Uh
Anymore(anymore)

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
And everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
a murderer...(a murderer)
no no no no
yeah yeah yeah..





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