Everyday went i'm home, i'm start to think of many things.
My mood is soo low. I don't know why. Hais.
That's why sometime i don't like to come home early.
All i can do at home, eat, sleep, dvds, tv, com. NO MORE. Hais.
I'll keep eating &eating non stop when i'm at home.
Haiss. Why am i like that? I though i have think over it alr, but in fact i'm not.
Now you ask me, will i miss you i can only tell you i don't.
Now i only miss my grandmother who's sick yet i can't get to see her.
Hais. Mum don't want to bring me in. I can't possible go myself.
Ahhh, i dont know. I attitude my father. I feel so guilty.
I know i shldnt have, but still i did it again.
&this is the first time i eat dinner with mum in silent.
Hais. I can't possible tell her i'm suffering here right?
IMPOSSIBLE LAH. LOL.
I must greatly thanks jocelyn &the brothers for keeping me accompanied.
Never failed to cheer me up, console &advice me. ((((:
Yes, everything happen too fast, too fast.
Too fast till i'm too lost. I need someone to guide me thru.
Tell me why you need my love so much, because u love me??
Prove to me that i've done wrongly. Prove to me i need you.
Cause i feel nothing now. I don't know what to do.
I'm just like a kite which had stuck onto the tree.
I really don't need anyone by myself.
I feel like giving up, but i don't bear to. Afterall it's so long alr.
I'm clinging half way, without knowing what to do.

I don't intend to continued studying for sec5.
Maybe i will go for my future since mum is supporting me.
But still depend on my results ba. If my english got 4? i'll definitely go up.
But grade 5? I might reconsider. It's very risky lah.
Hahaha. Anyway if i dont get a chance to take Olevel, nvm.
Cause i'm having olevel math this year, at least i take before olevel.
Ahhh, whatever lah.
shall wait for my result then i think about it again ba.

Sigh, life is getting better, but i still dont intend to return. isit this better?
AHhhh, i dont know. Maybe yes maybe no. I don't know.
Having yoga lesson with elin, huimin. Jocelyn &rest not sure yet. HAHAHA.
Then swimming! Jogging! Cycling! HAHAH. Yea. This holiday i'm gonna exercise! (((((:
GOD, let me smile, let me be happy! I don't want to be shagg everyday. ((((:


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