Saturday

• Studied with bel at Aljunied Mac.
• Garie came to look for us while waiting for his friends
• Bel left at 10plus.
• Zhiyang, fengyao came. Followed by dawei.
• Studied one chapter of history.
• Accompanied them to fag &walked home.

I miss baobei. Things not solve till now, just kept repeating. I'm trying very hard to calm myself, not to think about it. After since that quarrel, we aint like before. &that quarrel caused everything to change. Haiz, can someone just turn time back?

I really feel like killing myself. I don't know how to carry on. Hais, am i a useless gf? I can't even ask my bf to do something for me, to accompany me. WHY DO I HAVE SUCH A BF? Or isit to him i'm not important. I really feel like giving up.