1st lesson at amore fitness, kickboxing. (:
it's horrible. hahs. i mean tired! cause i can't catch up lah. ): stupid me.
enjoyed myself althou it's tiring! super tired!
non-stop exercising for 1hr. imagine that. only 2min break lei.
BUAYTAHAN! =x DEAD BEAT. hahahas.

3days motivation camp. it's so STUPID &LAME!
it's useless, it's pointless. i rather have normal lesson.
i rather to have test. i rather to have homework then this stupid camp.

whenever i kept quiet, whenever i sit by myself, whenever i start avoiding things.
whenever i say im tired, whenever im with a slag face.
&that's when im in bad mood. moodswings really sucksss.
i don't know why it often happen to me. &really whenever im tired i got moodswings.
((((((: but don't worry, IM NICE. Hehehes.

Saturday, 27Jan . Finally met with maine &elin. (:
As usual, i was late. =P never once i was early, nono i shld say puntucal.
Headed hongkong cafe for lunch. Service sucks &the food sucks.
But still, i love their dimsim &porridge. hehehs.
Window shopped at cine, then headed to wisma topshop.
finally bought the long sleeve top i wanted. (:
greengreengreen. hehes. elin bought the white colour.
I want flesh imp baggg. regret buying newurbanmale de. ):
headed to fareast. bought myself a tube dress, red colour.
elin bought the brown colour one. hehes. NICE. (:
Wanted to get my Levi's shoe, but out of stock. Grrr.
DULAN when they say no more stocks. I diedie also want levi's shoe.
Actually to change to everlast de, but i still like levi. )))):
Can't find the things i want. ):

Headed to ps. Maine want to get her stuffs from spotlight &their service totally sucks.
Elin bought her charles &keith heel. with 30%off. cause maine's fren working.
So good lah! then maine went off for dinner with her family.
Hahas. Then went daiso walkwalk. i want to make chocolate on valentine's day!
Hahahas. Headed bugis. Ohya, there's two girls keep diao us. KNS, like we not eye diao like that. sucks.
The bus went off without you two, serve you right. =P
Bring elin to buy her shorts &jeans. I want to buy bagggs, but i can't. ):
Wanted to find joanna at her work place but she's not there.
Soooo amore fitness, here we come. hahahahs.
joined member. yoga, kickboxing, pliates! i want to attend this 3classes.
but pliates(B) is only in the morning. im having school! argghhhh.

im nice to visit isabel at suntec. bought food for her &ate my dinner. (:
took bus back. stupid loh. theres one CRAZY uncle, keep kan-ing vulgarities.
Cause the bus is full &no one wants to move. HELLO, the bus is FULL alr.
there's no place to move. use your common sense. just because you're standing at the stairs of the bus,
you expect people to move for you. GO&DIE lah. go take cab lah. 3places for you to sit!
then got place to sit liao still KAN, got your problem ar. just point middle finger at him lah.
me &elin was so DULAN. luckily i alight 1st. hahs. was home early. &mummy finally like the clothes i bought. hahahs.

jocelyn went cambodia for wedding dinner alr. about 1mth never meet her alr.
gonna meet her went she's back!
tuition in the morning. i know how to do ln & e graph liao. hehehs.
came home &slept till 3plus. hahahs. super tired lah.
ate brunch &here i am online. Gonna to practice for my amaths test alr.
i don't want to fail. i want to get high marks! hehehehes.

i want to avoid coming online. is wasting my time lah.
controlcontrolcontrol. so i wont be updating often. i want to study!
i need motivation! i want to be self-discipline! :P

Off to watch tv &study! (:

Homeworks &tests makes me crazy! Ahhhh.
I don't want homework, i don't want tests!
Can someone please save me.

I don't want to be emo. I don't want to have moodswings.
I don't wish to give attitude. I'm just like possessed.
School life is so tiring, killing me.
Having headache due to insufficient sleep. AHhhh.
I want to sleep long hourssssss. )):
Everyday just catch 5hours of sleep. NOT ENOUGH!
Can school start later? 8.30am? it'll be COOL. hahaha!
I'm daydreaming again. Lalala.

Something makes me pissed off again.
The moment i saw, i regret turning back. I shld have keep walking str8.
*slap myself hard* serve me right lah. it's not anyone's fault.
i say before i won't bother about it, but doesn't mean i can't be angry mahs.
i didn't vent anger, i didn't talk much. I kept quiet &carry on with my day. (:

Badminton today. I'm like on form! So fun playing lah. Hahahas.
Maybe cause i vent my anger on badminton? Hohoho. *evil smile*
Tdy training is not tough! So relaxing. Coach is nice for tdy. (:
Hahaha. Class deco in progress. Kinda pissed. No one want to help.
So forget it. Let be simple. (:
Chionging homework again. Ahhhhhh.



Life is full of ups downs.
Why isit when everytime there's happiness, next min it'll be sadness.
Why can't life be full of happines, be a little fair to us human being?
Why do we need to yearn for our past? Why life is full of regrets?
Why is there more sadness then happiness? Ahhhhhh.
Sometime i wonder why people betray friends for? For love, money?
Well, i think it mean no sense at all !
What is the true meaning of f-r-i-e-n-d-s ? Tell me lah.
One sentence i've read from magazine.
When you lose wealth, you lose nothing.
When you lose health, you lose something.
When you lose your character, you lose everything.
I definitely agree with it. (((:
I've got a lot to say, but i just can't express out. Ahhhhhhhh.


Bastard, you'll be alright. Nothing will happen de. (:
Look positive, that's what you tell me. I'll be here praying for you.
Hahaha. touching? LOL. whatever. rmb, you have me this friend to pray for you. (:

Lalala. Work on saturday.
Don't intend to continued alr. Can't cope with Amaths alr.
Grrrrr. Dear came to look for me at evening. (:
After work, saw fengyao &pingliang. All waited for me. Thanks.
Headed for dinner. Yummy. So hungry by then. Ha.
Nothing much happened. Headed home.
Sunday, 14hours of sleeping. Hehs. Bathed &all.
Went dear house. Cooked spaghetti for him. Haha.
Yummy, so hungry! 1 meal a day. (: DIET! LOL.
Headed home around 9 &continued with my homeworkkkk.

Ahhhh. Say goodbye to Amathssss. )):
Gonna get single digit again. FEB, i promise my result will be back.
I don't know why. Just no mood to study now.
Lazy. I want to singggg. 1mth never go KTV alr siaa. )):
Boozing, singing, slacking. Ahhh. All holiday mood. Ha.
Lesson's pretty fine. Jokes, laugher, craziness.
No more moodswing! Only that i get tired easily! ):
Extra lesson was cool. Vocab. Learnt new words. (:
After that, slackk again. Hahs. Addicted to Hp games. LOL.
Tmr another long dayyy. YAWNS!


Photos. (:

DEAD BEAT !

Insufficient sleep this week, which cause me to mood swings.
Don't ask me why, i don't know. Just feeling vexed when i'm tired.
Boring lesson, dozing off nearly every lesson.
&i noticed i lost interest in most of the subject.
isit gonna do with my laziness? Grrrrr. Must push myself to study lehh.
):

Thursday &today wasn't feeling all right. Was quite most of the time.
&suddenly i can be so loud &crazy. Hahs. Mood swingss lahhh. ((:
Terrible stomachache i've today. Beating myself in pain.
&recess when the moment i smell oily food i feel like vomiting lah.
no panadol for me. ): drink plenty of water.
&felt much better after school. slack around, then went home.
went to see doctor before going out. ((: medicine again.
sick of it alr. hahs. went raffles take key, then went bugis to meet dear.
was sms-ing then someone called me, ESTEEN! hahahs.
so long never see her alr. (: dear bought his jacket (but not really, like cloth de)
walked around, JOANNA! she working &so nice of her to call me. (:
She so sweet ! (doubt she will be reading this) hahahas!
chatted awhile &left. ((: She so pretty now! hahahas.
Went amore fittness to ask about the courses.
Well, not bad &the cost is reasonable. (: *considering*
hopefully will start next month. (: COOL! yoga, kickboxing.
But once a week only. ): GYM also. hehehes.
Went over suntec, wanted to eat marche, but CLOSED!
is under-renovation. ))): so headed to city link, asian kitchen for dinner.
Food was appetising, but can't finish. DIET &get full easily. (:
Both headed home, cause i want to watch my ELVIN! (:

Tmr last day of work, havent tell them yet.
Don't care lah. Last day, must tahan! Hehes.
Lots of homework &tests! Grrrrr. TIRED !

I'm super disappointeddddddd in you lah. AHHH.
From tdy onward, i will take my hand off you. I won't bother about you anymore.
I'm just doing what a friend should do, but it's seems like i'm a busybody.
Don't bother to promise me anything anymore. i'll not believe you.
You ask me to believe you again, yes i did, but i'm wrong. i shouldn't have.
DISAPPOINTED LAH !
I'm saying again, I'LL TAKE MY HANDS OFF YOU.
Don't bother to tell me anymore about it, I'M SPEECHLESS !

Why want to make me NUMB again? I really hate people to promise me things, yet still brk it.
&is you, yourself who want to promise me de lehhhhh. TELL ME LAH.
All my friends meant alot to me. moreover you're my goodfriend!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. Fcuk up lah.
Although i'm happy you're honest, but still sighhh.
Forget it, don't want to continued anymore.

Enjoyed my day! Hahs. Human lesson was GREAT!
I start to like SS, but history is still alright. At least i know how to apply for SBQ!
Mr Chewee ROCKSSS. Hahas. No more sleeping in human lesson unlike years before. ((((:
GREAT IMPROVE. -faster say i'm guai! hehes.
Must still to concentrate during chinese lesson, although i hate it. (:
MY AMATHHHHHH! What happen??? Not much interest nowadays.!
maybe new topic very difficult siaaa. LOG, differentiation trigo etc.
Faster Feb, &my tuition will starts! ))))): I don't want continued with my slack attitude!
After school went to get stuffs for class deco. (: We can paint the wall, but end of year must paint back sia.
So maybe don't want alr. hahahas. &that's when YOU spoilt my day with 1sms!

I'm so vexeddddd. AHHHHHHH.
Maybe because i'm too tireddd. ahhh.
Off to to homeworkkk.

Great day. (((:
Ytd's chinese lesson, think thru alot of things after wht panping said.
it's so true that when you're close with someone, you tend to abuse it.
just like families members. i often don't cherish them well, &tend to use hurtful words.
but take an example, if it's someone i don't really know well, i won't.
likewise, to everyone. i wonder why. grrrrrr.

Life is still as boringggg. School life totally sucksss.
Flunked my amaths test. it's for sure a single digits marksss.
Cant be bother attitude lahhh. Slacking slacking slacking.
Don't have the disclipine to study everyday lahhhh.
All i know is Olevel is still way behind. Hahs. 10more months.
i'll be regretting when it's too lateee. whatever lahhhhh. (((:

I'm in love with black roseeee. *winkwink*
Black rose is just the same meaning as my lifee.

Black rose, so beautiful and deep.
Never die and never let anyone keep.
Thorns so sharp serve to warn
but also embellish and adorn.
A color so dark keeps strangers out,
but commands attention like a shout.

Open me like a delicate rose
and see what patience will bestow.
Be gentle with my fragile beauty
because you need not be hasty.
Good comes to those who wait,
so have control and do not hate.

Be aware of my deep, dark heart
that which my mind cannot outsmart.
The petals that contain me conceal
a dark past I do not wish to reveal.
Though I may be rough around the edges,
I have been softened inside by the ages.

As the time passes away,
memories of me will hopefully stay.
Recollect the times we used to spend.
Keep these moments and never let them end.
So as my last petal falls to the ground,
realize I will never stay earthbound.

Nice righttt. hehehes.

Forgive your enemies, but never forget their name.
I'll learnt from this phrase. thou i bear grugdes, but now i don't think so.
the only person that i'll never forgive is her, my sister.
i just can't accept her anymore, even if she change. it's pointless.
although i tried to stop everything but i just can't.
the way she's living sucks &totally suckssss. yea, it's not my life, but we are staying under the same roof lahhh.
&i know whenever i say something about her, mummy will start siding her.
but still, she's my mother &iloveher.

Finally i get sleep for long hourssss. during holiday i also can't sleep for long hoursss.
So shiok lahhh. 14hourssss. Hehes. But still not enough siaaa. LOL.
Friday night, the day mummy don't allow me to go ktv.
but luckily i didn't go, cause stupid zhiwei book wrongly or something. hahahas.
so they came to find me. &they say they want to explore mjr. SIAO!
raining sia, so endup they never go loh. played cards at my house downstair till 12plus1.
&cyong started to talk about ghosttt. damn him lahhh. LOL.

Saturday, another shopping spree with baby. walk until leg pain siaaa.
went to bugissss. dear wanted get a top but can't find.
bought a bag from bugisV. cause dear say nice, so he bought for me. HAPPYYYY. hahas.
bought another ear stuck. arghhhhh. i must stop buying ear stucks.
must save all the money to get a real ear ring. left ear sensitive, can't wear fake de. )))):
walk walk, went to find BEL. she's with fiona, nita &etc. hahss.
chatted a while, continued with shopping. but nothing catch our eye. hahsss.
so headed to town, wisma. bought for dear a fresh imp jacket.
then dear bought one for me. hehehes. same colour but different design.
super cheap lahhhh. cause having salessss. hahahahs.
still owe dear one bagggg. he's so picky siaaa. so long haven't choose a bag. hahahas.
&i want fresh imp baggg. i dont want new urban male de liao. ))): regret siaaa.
NUM 149$, fresh imp only 79$. arghhhhhhh.
dinner, pepper lunch! YUMMY! but i pay for it, cause dear no cashhh le.
cause he buy for me two thingggs. hahahas. after dinner, no where to go.
soooooo, went home! hahaha. super early sia. 10plus 11.
mummy was shocked also. hahaha. never expected i'll reach home early. hehehes.
this proved i'm GUAI ! hohoho. =P

my online stuff arrived! wohoooo. one jeans, but havent pay. IM BROKE! arghhhh.
spotted something for deardear. nicenice. he'll sure like it. (((((:

ahhhh, time to studyyyyy. ):
tmr amaths test againnnnn. &homeworkkks. I HATE IT LAHHH.
&tmr schooling again. HATEITHATEIT. must wake up early. SCH SUCKS. ):
but i love going to school cause i've got friendds to accomany me. hehehes.

i finally realised, i don't have my own freedom.
i hate, fcuking hate to be controlled.
neither parents, sisters, friends, teachers. NO ONE CAN.
yes, if you controlled me i will just ignore you, or attitude you.
cmon, it's not the first time i'm going out late at night.
sometime i even went out at 8plus9. now, 7plus8 i can't go out.
WTF! you tell me cause it's school days, but i rmb that time was also sch day.
i reach home at 7plus after school, &i can go out.
WTF is this siaaaa. i should not ask you, i should have just go out then tell you.
why am i so stupid this time? *slap myself hard*
i'm alr not in good mood over something, now another one come.
why everytime after go out then i tell you, now i even ask you. grrrrrr.
YOU SPOILT MY MOOD LAHHHHHH.


STUPID SCHOOL WITH STUPID SCHOOL RULES!
fcuking dulan with school, esp mrs poh.
&the rules is super fcuking lame.
when you're NOT LATE, 2min to bell, LRC will be given.
when you're LATE, no LRC. 3chances.
WHERE GOT SUCH THING. STUPID LAME RGT!
i really buay gei yan school lahhh. just because it's raining days.
then if it's not raining, at parade sq, we can 7:29:59 reach school lah.
FCUKING LAME LAH.
i should have go on to my hairstylish courses lah.
i shouldnt have carry on sec5. sucky schhhhh. ARGHHHHHHHHH!
RETARD SCHOOL. IM CURSING THE SCHOOL.
i enjoy with all my friends &classmates but i'm super unhappy with the stupid rules.
so UNREASONABLE lah. then must well change it to 7.25 bell ring.


homeworks, test all coming up. HELPPPPPPPP!


i'm not feeling alright. although i feel guilty quarreling. haiss.
NO ONE UNDERSTAND!

i need to lose weight, i want to lose weight. AHHHHHH.
i so fat now, as fat as a cow. moooo. LOL. grrrrrr.
trying super hard to avoid oily&fattening food.
exercising also have been carrying out for days. hahs.
everyday 50 sit ups. hahs. today went for badminton, exercise-d. hahs.
tmr PE! hurrary ! runrunrun. train my stamina &lose weight.
perseverance, determination. grrrrr.
all i know now is to lose weight.

i hate the mosquito lah! go &die lahhh.
want bite also don't bite my face ma. haiyooo.
grrr. i hate mosquito!! SUCKSSSS. grrrr.

still not in mood of studying yet. super slack.
lazy to study &do hmwk. grrrr.
still holiday mood lah, holiday so short niaaaa.
don't feel like working alr. i want to play during weekendssss.
very long never enjoy life with deardear le. hehehes.
i want eat marcheeeee. but im still in process of dieting. )))):
sadd lahh. irritated by my throat lahhh.
i wish i'll fall sicksicksickkkkk. fever, diahorrea. i dont want cough &flu. it's so irritating.
&so i'll have nno appetite. controlling my diet back to before. grrrrrrrrrrr.
don't ask me why, i just want lose weight &cause im FATTT.

have got no time to watch dramaaa.
i want to watch finish one litres of tearssssss &mygirl.
waiting for constance to finish then borrow from jocelyn.
grrr. &so long never meet them alrrr. missthemsomuch. hahahahhs.

i want to drop POA but i can't. grrrr.
so what if Nlevel got 2? doesn't mean Olevel can get 2 also ma.
ahhhhh. losing interest in POA alr. sick of it. too lazy.
POA is just like ART. i need the mood, then i'll be able to do. hahs. whatever.

Aku Sayang.

don't feel like blogging this feel days although i've got many things to say.
don't know where to start, don't know what should i blog &shouldn't blog.
grrrrrr. damnit lah. hahs.
1st week of school, homeworks; tests all coming up. Grrrr.
same rountine, slack; lunch; home. life is different w/o so many friends.
sickkkkkkk on friday. siannnnnn. not feeling well. horrible.
whole body ache, sore throat.

work with bel on saturday. chatted &all. hahs.
hahs. &jon was nice to came all the way to accompany her.
close shop for like 1/2 an hour &thanks to jon sia.
if not, i guess we need 1hour. hahs. *evil smile*
then headed to chuplao with the couple, meet dear there.
went to eat lomee. but so sad i can't &don't eat.
then the couple cab &followed by me. too tired alr. hahs.

today bought lunch for swtswt bel. LOL. see i so niceee. LOL.
then me &dear headed to carrefour. bought my FBT short &a sport top.
dear bought one too. hehehs. super ex sia, 62$. Grrrr.
then bought water for bel &headed back.
her family came. LOL. very long never see her mother alr siaa. hehes.
chatted awhile, they left &i headed bugis.
bought manymany thinggsss. im DEAD. i need to save money lahhh.
bought one belt, black short, schedule book, necklace, contact lens.
Grrr. spent 100$ ++++ today. luckily dear pay for the lens. hehehs.
headed home quit early. nothing more to buy, moreover we are tiredddd.
walked long distance. hahhahs.

tmr amath testssss. haven't study siaa.
log is so difficult, must practice moremore sia.
can't afford to fail any of my amath test now. cause i got a 2 for Nlevel.
can't dissappoint myself &tutor. maybe starting tuition next month. hehehes.

nothing much alrrr. another week is starting. longgg week sia.
monday 4period maths lesson. Grrrrrrrrr.
ohya, i LOST 1KG lahhhhh. super happyyyyyyy.
just in 5days siaaaaa. woohooooo. should eat more vegetable (which i hate the most).
exercise moreeeee, eat less oily food. i've been avoiding oily food since wed lahhh. hehes.
dieting is still on. i must endure endure until i fulfill my dream weight. Grrrrr.
let me grow taller plssss. :(((((

ytd was 6th of the month. HAPPY ANNIVERSARY BABY.
after all the unhappiness, quarrels, hurts finally i can see the happiness in us.
although there's still unhappy things btw us, i swallow it.
i don't wish to quarrel anymore. sick of it, tired of it.
you swallow urs, &i swallow mine. &ofcause it's only those minor ones. ((:
iloveyoumybaby.

Aku Sayang, gneseewyolrm <333

he's so cuteeeeee. ahhhhh. (:


zhiting! cousin's son, my nephew!


constance took me when im was busying writing. =.=


New year countdown at esplande.


on new year eve. working &gerie came to find us. (:




Gerie &Me. (:


On xmas day. ): working.


Xmas countdown at my house downstair BBQ. (:


Xmas eve on MRT. (:


Blogger suckss. shall upload the rest tmr. suckss lah. suddenly can't upload liao. arghhh.
Im falling sick soon. ))))))):
i miss my previous school life with all my frens. grrrrrrr.
resolutions for 2006:
diet, study, happy. hahs.
dont want to think much. god, just let 2007 go smoothly &i'll be satisfied.

i really need to go on diet now. :(

ahhhhh. i gain 3kg this holiday. omgomg!
cannot lah. i diedie also must go on diet.
i need yoga courses. i need to exercise.
swimming, jogging. cannot be lazy anymoreeeee. arghhh.
must have the determination, perseverance.
so sadddd sadd sadddd. :(

bought my guess wallet ytd. happyyyyyyy!
1st day of school, boredddd.
but slept quite alot. hahs. crap &chatted alot. hahs.
lalalaaaaaa. quite happyy today. LOL.

DIETDIETDIET is all i know now.!!!!
getting my pay later. (((:
ohohhhh. i've spent 1k this holiday.
horrible sia, i didnt realise until i start counting my pay for 1month.
i earn 1k+ &i've spent all. OMG. horrible!
ahhhhhhhh. don't even know what i've spent on. :(((
starting to save money nowww.
DIET &SAVE MONEY! arrghh.

HAPPY 2007!
finally year 2006 has come to the end, a real bad scuky year for me &maybe everyone. :)
so bid gdbye 2006 &i'll welcome year 2007. hahs. LAME. =.=
hope everything will goes smoothly &all the best to everyone. (:

im dead tireddddd.
working so many hours &i slept for 6hours each day. ahhhhhhh.
31 dec, my last day of work at lido. hohohooo.
kinda miss it siaaaa. ): everything happen there &etc.
after work, dear come meet me. headed to esplande for firework.
didn't manage to get there but opposite? hahs.
firework is sooo PRETTY. gorgeous! (:
after which, went over to fushion &meet the rest. played pool!
didn't play for such a long time lah. like half a year liao sia.
hahahas. then later wanna hire cab &go over to met those brothers.
but NO CAB. fcukkkkk. saw prisc &she's so pissed off by those cab. (: cheers babe.
daniel &jinxiong came over to find us. no cabbbbb for 1hourrr.
called cy &finally a saw TAXI ! woohoooo. like FINALLY lah.
party worlddddd. hahs. although it's terrible but it's fun too. (:
dear, sorry to paiseh you. cause you're with your friends.
&they asked me to go, moreover it's newyear.
i know you don't like but you still let me go. LOVESSSSSSSSS.

thanks babe &dude for everything in 2006.
it'll be better this year. (:

should i left things to be unsaid? grrrr.
tell me what to do. i can't be selfish, i can't control it.
my life, &ineedyoubaby. (: