Had temporarily hair perm. Meet sayang at his house area and went ps to meet darling and damien. They accompany me for my lunch at mos. Aftermath, went suntec for phototaking. Mummy let me go over to hereen but by the time we finish, everything ended. And sayang is going home early, so went for dinner with mummy. Although the resturant isn't high class, but the food there was delicious, esp the shark fins and the roasted chicken. YUMMY! So full man. Bloated ! Theres goes gaining of weight/fats. ): But i'm happy! 能吃是福。Hehes. Alright, 3weeks time the photo will be out. &we are supposed to take family but the bloody bitch in our family spoilt it. how i wish theres only 4of us. I guess it more peaceful. =D Waitinggggg.

I LOVE BABY BAOBEI SAYANG ! Saya Cinta Kamu.

Raining saturday. Spoilt my mood early in the morning. I hate raining on saturday cause i want to go out! Went over to baobei house to do hmwk. Stupid english compo giving me headache! His lil brother is damn funny lah but baobei was irritated by him. Haha! The way he laugh and speaks is really funny. :) Left his house for ps. Bought the thing i wanted! We went daiso and spotlight to play around. Haha! It's fun ! Wanted to get heels but i can't decide which to buy so end up i didnt get any. :) Slacked and home. Finally i've got photos to upload. =D

Tmr will be a busy day! Ahhhh. Havent complete my hmwk. Morning tuition, Afternoon shld be meeting baobei, evening family photo, night dinner. ah! damn it. Till then, Goodnight!

I felt that bf had changed a lot ever since the first day i knew him to the day we got together and now. Maybe his brothes around him couldn't see that but i can. I can say it's a big change in him. Well, i don't know what makes him changed so much but i don't know should i be happy or sad. He had been studying hard. And also er, i dont know how to put in words lah! Ah. But well, is it a good sign or a bad one then? He's not the boy i know at first. I'm happy but i'm kind of sad cause he's no longer the boy i knew at the start. but well, i like his present attitude too. Ahh. I don't know lah. Sometime i wish he's who he's in the past but i like who he is now. I know it's him, his own choice to live his life but ah. I don't know. I don't know how to put it in words lah. Damn it. I'm lacking of expression, words to express myself. DAMNASS lah. Seriously, i miss who he is in the past but i like his present attitude too. but i know i can't control his life although i'm her gf. I admit i don't fully trust bf, but i hope there's really nothing hiding behind. (I guess you know why. And all caused by my ex. =D I know you're different from him, but everything takes time. Sorry for giving you attitude everyweek. never fail to give you attitude. Isn't what i want but i guess you will never understand. i have told you before, over and over again. I really don't wish to. Yea but i know you never blamed me.)
No matter what I LOVE YOU! More and more each day. Cause no matter what, you're always forgiving me, tolerating me. Hehes.

My stupid silly lousy SWEETEST LOVED bf!

I hate myself for everything I am. Everything I stand for. Every breath I take. Everything I do. It's all just another mistake. I hate myself for all the things I do. All the things I say. All the words that form. I know none are true. I hate myself for everything I am. It's all just the same. My silent plea. That everything could change. I hate everything I am and how I turned out to be. I always thought that I should be me, but how can I? Now I see, this was my destiny. If I looked back on my life I probably couldn't even recognize me. Everything I feel, All the things I have to face. I hate myself for being such a pitiful disgrace. I hate my attitude, my temper. I don't know what i really want, who am i. I hate myself for being emotional.


So i say, i sucks big time. :)

1 month 1 time sucks.
I don't want to get moody.
I don't want to get dragged away.
I'm so bored. Someone entertain me pls.
I'm craving for DURAINS. I'm so hungry now.
&&the feeling's totally SUCKS! Anw, I miss my bf ! He's mugging now.

Being a girl isn't easy. :D

The paths of life takes us to places of love and hatehappiness and disppear, trial and triumph in the end where are we going to fall who are we to judge others right or wrong doings. all we can do is reflect on the faults in our own livestry to repear the souls that we have damaged asking god for strength to move on. we can't live our lives in self pity in the reflection of all we've done wrong. there are no guarantees that we will never fall again but we will never be perfect, it's a fact that we have to live with acceptance is a great thing.
Life - It comes and goes. We have to go through, we have to exit. Life can be reckless, can be generous, can be unfair, can be joyful. But we have to live it. Regardless it may not be easy. But nonetheless, it's a gift. :)

As time goes by, thinking get mature. Thinking back of the time when we are still a childish kid, naughty girl finding trouble with everyone we dislike, its like a fool man. Yea, i admit i was once a fool then. LOL. This chinese sentence, 每个人都年轻过。:) And when things/time goes by, people changed. And it's when you start thinking back about the past. We live with our past but at the same time we gotto improve it too. In life, we might met people we dislike, but we got to think in another way. People will dislike us too. So why bother about others, esp someone you dislike? Yea i'm still wondering. Is there anyone who can live happily without any grudges? Ahh. I wish i can stop bothering about things that attract to my eye. A smile, will make my life better so why not just a smile to everyone. I want to overcome it. I want to be nice i want good karma. Is it so nice to criticise people everytime? Yes, people do criticise but imagine someone who are nonstop criticising. I wonder how she live she life, so unhappy. So horrible. Dislike anything anyone, move aside then. :) 忍一时 风平浪静，退一步 海过天空。

BABY I LOVE YOU ! =DD

Booos ! Baby sent me home and he went home. Just ate my lunch. I'm kinda bored. Mummy just came home too. I wanna take a nap. Sleeping is my hobby ! Ah whatever, i'm just entertaining myself. Well, sch was alright but i just dislike english lesson. Say i got grudges against her. Her words were sacrcastic &saying how bad is our english standard. Cmon lah if our english is good do we still need you? Our english is bad &thats the reason for you to be a teacher but you seems to be like looking down on our class english standard. Your responsible is to teach us not to compare us with other people. Grrrr. &you're freaking bias. I'm not only the one who are saying this is just that they never dare to speak out. I need the encouragement, bravery man. I just wish i am daring enough to speak it out in front of her &i can be the heroine, hahaha!. But afterall she's a teacher and i do learn a bit from her. Ha. All's craps. =D

Well, ytd went over to baby's house. He bought me the prawn noodles im craving for. =D Went over to his house and eat. Slacked around, used com. His parent's come early and i got a shock lah! LOL. His father insist of sending my home due to the rain. That's nice. I can save my cab fare! (: Loveyoubaobei. (:

Time to take a nap ! Yawns. Till then. (:

遇到可相信的朋友时，要好好和他相处，因为在人生中，可遇到知己真得不易。

遇到人生中的贵人时，好记的好好感激，因为他是你人生中的转折点。

遇到曾经爱过的人，记得薇笑向他感激，因为他是你让你更懂爱的人。

遇到曾经恨过的人时，要薇笑向他打招呼，因为他让你更加坚强。

遇到曾经背叛你的人时，跟他好好聊一聊，因为若不是他今天你不会懂这世界。

遇到曾经喜欢的人时，要祝他幸福啊! 因为你喜欢他是， 不是希望他幸福吗？

遇到匆匆离开你人生的人时，要谢谢他走过你人生，因为他是你精采回忆的一部分。

遇到曾经和你有误会的人时，要趁现在解清误会，因为你可能只有这一次机会解释清楚。

Heyheyhey ! My blog seems dead . Ok i'm sick on sunday and monday. No fry food for me and it's terrible man. School was as usual . Ytd when ecp to cycle with baobei and clique. So tiring man . Darling didnt come along cause she got project to complete . Double bike with bb and its so scary at the starting! Baobei and i left 1st and the rest went to eat .



Well, zy is leaving tmr morning . Initially, i don't really believe cause it's so sudden . He still owe me lolipop ! Haha . He will buy me lolipop whenever im sad. (: Sister, rmb to takecare ah. Bon voyage . (ah, i knew it man. cause its so sudden) =D



In life, people come and go we got to accept. Just smile, you will feel better, nothing is impossible to overcome. (:





gosh ! i look so fat .

i love the wind
Our double bike !

&&Lastly, happy 4th mth anniversary with baobei ! (: There's will be more to go . Although we often quarrel over something nono, it's me but he always give in, nono is never failed to give in to me. =x And over this 4mth i've bake cake, brownies, jelly for him ! So blissful sia but i got nth . )): hahah ! No lah, i got his love. =D I don't need much from him but trust and faithful . &&&&i don't like when he give me his stupid tired face !!! =D (i know you will rmb this one day) but still i lovelove you !

Kinda frustrated today. Insufficient sleep, i supposed. Woke up at 10am ! I slept aat 3plus last night lah. moreover, it's saturday ! Ahhhh, had a fuss with that bitch. Prepared and left for convention hall. Everything end at 4plus, went for reception and homed. Damn tired. Supposed to go over koon's house for steamboat but im too tired. so sorry. Meet baobei for dinner. Craving for pasta ! (: Lazy to blog. (: PHOTOS !









More photos in the camera, lazy to update. hehes ! Till then, nights.

Tmr will be dajie grad day. (: Woahhhh so fast ah when i first enter mjr she isnt in smu yet and now she's grad im still in mjr. ahhhh. yea, its just tmr in few min time ? haaaa. im looking forward man. =D

Just reach home from baby's house. I made jelly for him ! (: Yes surprise again. =D his pokemon is real prooooo i cant deny. all L100 alr lahhhhhhhh. im like only 30+ hahaha. this time he is clever i must say that. at least he prove to me that he's good at smth. hahaha. Although i always call him my stupid silly bf but he got good pts too. =D and finally i got the outsider2 after 34358760 yearssss. hahahaha! Went S21 eat wanton mee. it's damn yummy man. after eating one plate im asking for another plate. hahah! cabbed home and tada, im blogging. (:

im tired tired tired. ohya, 5A skipped adamkooh's session man. is like first time. but i felt guilty. he came back for us yet we gave a heck care attitude. it's real boring i swear. anw its over. i doubt school's will punish us lah. is like 1/2 of olevel student skipped. (: butttt i need to buck up my english. i flunk my block test. gayshit. im damn worry. getting worry worry alr. in 2plusmonths i will be taking my olvl. time pls pass slowly. but i wish it will end fast too. ahhhh.

no colour ): forgot to buy colouring.

Didn't go school tdy, wasn't feeling well in the morning, feel so giddy. having been eating durian consecutive 3days i guess cause i ate too much, very heaty. Finish watching sonria pasta, i know im a bit slow lah. (: it's nice anw. (:

Didn't meet baobei today. was too lazy go get myself out of house. =x miss him. waiting for his call now and mummy to be back home. im hungryyyy.

只要笑一笑，没有什么事情过不了。

my com is giving me problem again. ): i can't sign in to blogger so im using laptop now. Grrrr. when will my com treat me nicely. LOL.
Ytd had my chinese olevel oral. Not that difficult but im scared lah. LOL. and the conversation was so shocking ok cause me and yteng was talking abt it cause it was live earth day on saturday so i think they will come out abt that and it really come out. Hahaa. Luckyyyy.
Sunday stay at home and watched dvd the whole day. (: wanted to meet baobei but i cant wear contact lens so didnt want to go out. =x
This few days keep playing pokeman. =x baobei also help me with it. his pro lah i never knew. hahaha! my silly baobei. (:

i really cant stand people who think highly of themselve anddddd whatever lah. i know its not my problem. ok i will keep my mouth shut to avoid troubles. (:

I rmb promised that i won't be emo here again . (:



Ytd i went cycling after block test. Cycling alone is damn cool and relaxing. You just feel alone and you can sort out your thought. Thats what i did and i cooled down myself and partly because of what zhiyang told me. Im thinking positive. Although it may be lonely but its something so different same for shopping. Shopping alone is nice too. The feeling is great. (: Cycle all the way to tahan merah and back and aloy came to my mind. called him and went over to meet him. when baobei came. i went to return bike and suddenly a guy asked me to be friend. no mood for that lah. baobei is there waiting for me. I didnt talk much caause i know my attitude, im gonna be loud is i start talking so i let him talk. ha. actually after cycling, i cooled myself down and im alright. zyang is rgt, trust and tolerate must be there in r/s. ohya, koon and darling was so worried when i say im going ecp to cycle alone. ha. thanks so much dearest. i dont feel being that lonely. (: Played game, i dont know is what. the soccer game at arcade de. im so noob at it lah. LOL. Baobei sent me home. Really miss him so muchhhhhh.



Tdy, tuition in the noon. all was late expect jiashi. hohoho. simei after tuition for lunch. then took mrt to meet baobei, on the way saw calvin and shervonne. tsktsk. LOL. took bus to toapayo to get my contact lens. And my right eye got infection la ! no wonder its so pain. luckily i didn't delay till next week. and now, i cant wear contact lens for 2weeks unless i only wear on my left eye. ahhhhhhh. poor eye ): Bought half year contact lens. ahhhh, 1/4 of my pay is goneeeee. Slacked ard and toapayo is a nice place, they have got this place where i can see many couples there. so romatic lah. Lie on baobei lap and i nearly fall aslp. im so tiredddddddd. and baobei nearly fall aslp on my shoulder too. chatted a lot of things, the days we quarrelled. haa. it's overrrrr. hurrary. i know i can overcome it. (:



after what happened, we really talked heart to heart. we really chatted a lot of our live etc. i guess this quarrel is worth. *opps. (but i dont want it again.) four dayssssss we didn't talk face to face just like strangers when we saw each other and its so horrible. but i must really thanks koon for being by my side and darling, bel and zyang for being one phone away . and those who cared for me. life is full of ups downs but i manage to overcome it.

baby just woke up from his lala land. =x

im alright now, friends. thanks so muchhhhhhhh. im gonna learn to cherish everyone from now. yea, kinda like a great impact on my life siaa. i just feel lost w/o him. (: oh, &i've start playing a childhish game, pokemon ! =x being with koon and the clique i feel stress/trouble-free ! (:

So am i to say i'm the devil. Ya whatever. If you think that i got nth to say. I'm very emotional dont ask me why cause i myself also don't know. But i'm fragile, weak but i just don't want to show out. I know i can be strong but just hurt inside. You know the feeling? Is like having difficulties in breathing lah. Is so like im-going-to-die. Ahhhhh.

Who will be there for me ? Who will be my listener ? Who will be there to hear me out . Who will be there to hold me. No one, just bel, jocelyn &koon. They are always there for me who know me well my true character. But for others i think in their mind im always the devil. Be it then. I know i'm not. i dont want to draw attention to people that im sad. I dont want to act emo that everyone will pity me. I just want to have a smile on my face when im sad/hurt inside. i don't want to be hard and criticize others. no one is perfect. for that moment i maybe mean but thats not the real me. its all 3min anger. im never like that.

Life is full of ups downs. I all alone. I feel nothing but numb again. Feeling pain once again.In r/s there fuss &quarrel but why it always that im only the one suffering. Ya i shldnt have been into so deep. Its foolish. Why must i get attached then? cause i love him and i choose him. I rejected everyone who come to me just for you. But you never know. I sacrifice a lot just for me. I never been so nice when im hurt. But i did for you. I changed, swallow everything i talked nicely.

i haven't been concentrating well for my block test. I may get panic but actually i dont have the mood to study. i tear before i sleep. ah, forget it. I will be HAPPY . ((((((: no worries. Let me be alone &i will be alright. Since no one is there for me, i will be there for myself. I'm not pathetic at all at least i know i can overcome. =DDDD

Not feeling well this few days, vomit that night, 3ulcer !!!! ¬ much appetite.



Sorry for being emo again. I will try not to be emo here again. (:

Why is it when everything is going to be fine but end up everythings isn't fine at all . When i've alr cooled down but smth goes wrong again. That's the curse of it man . What to do ? i don't know why am i feeling so down . my life seems to be black and white again . i want colourful world pls . all troubles get away from me pls and my sucky bitchy attitude . I hate it man .

Like what i've told darl &koon. Shld i be positive or negative but i myself don't know. What the hell is that . I guess i'm toooooo tired i mean physically . Insufficient sleep this week . Maybe i will choose the positive way. WIN is the word i want. (koon, you shld know why i mean.) =x but i doubt i can. i bear grudges ? after tearing, i felt better. (:

Tdy studies with koon &jasmine. &that koon always go MIA lah . Left me &jasmine in the library. (: Guess i gonna flunk too. I'm studying for O's not block test ! Hees.

Ok. Suddenly i miss constance, huiting, kris, cindial, maine, aloy, huimin &many more lah. I miss those memories. Haaaaaaa.

Let me be a better person. &forgive me for my vulgarities. =DDD

edited quite long ago. posted here cause i've got no pic for the day.i don't like blog w/o pic. cause i hate wordssss. =xIf my life would be a book, I'll wish destiny would be the author so that I could ask him to write me a perfect story that starts with you and ends with you.

Don't cry now baby. Don't miss me so, I'm always here. You'll always know. When all is lost And comfort sought, Close your eyes. Rest your thoughts. I'm waiting for you. In your dreams, I'll kiss you sweet. It's me you'll see. I'll touch you warmly. Eyes will swoon, Embrace so tender. By light of moon. Just close your eyes. And go to sleep, Wherever you are I'll always be.

Fkkkkkkkkkk. I just feel like shoutinggg out loud w all vulgarities ! AHHHHHHHHHHHHH. No one understand how am i feeling now. is like fking fking fk up lah. Fine, since he's not caring much so am i. I'm not going to get trouble over it. i will get my butt in front of my book &start studying. Yes, no point thinking any further. FINEFINEFINE. I'm not going to care anymore. Don't blame me for that. I want block test to be over right now ! I got no mood to study. FKKKKKK. I wanna weekend. I wanna go out. I wanna shopppp to make myself feel better. What fking world is this. No different than HELL. i just wanna shout F-U-C-K fuck ! Get away from me.
I'm stubborn. I'm thinking should i do it that way. (from my thinking) but i know it's impossible cause i've got a fking bad attitude. i wont be able to make it. Now its only, move on or avoid. YES, with my fking attitude i guess no one can tolerate.
I'm sorry, i'm just myself. i don't need any sympathetic unlike others. (:

Ahhhhhhhhh. Bring me away from those fking feelings. It sucksssssss totally. (: I just don't want to care/bother about it, but i can't. fkk it. I don't wanna see, i wish nothing had happen at all. Fk.
Thanks for being my listening ear, koon &jocelyn. LOVEYOUDEAREST. =D







my gorgeous lady, isabel wong !

Weeeeee. Last day of work. Off an hour early. &darling come to find me, w damien. I was shocked the moment i saw her. lovess lah. hahaha. Packed stuffs &shopped ard. Spotted a small drawstring sling bag, but darling say not nice &ex ! (: Ha. Ate MOS again. Hahaha. Rather sick of it alr. =x Slacked, chatted, laughed. (:



Ohwell, i just hate liars liars liars, esp in r/s. i found out all by MYSELF. How disappointing was it. (oh, not cyong. =x) It was my ex. i know i shldn't be saying here, butbutbut i just can't stand it. You can lie to me for that moment but not FOREVER. I've nothing to say but just B-A-S-T-A-R-D, bastard. Sorry for being so rude. I don't care whether anyone is reading this &spread to his ear or her gf. Why must i bother when i'm not the B-I-T-C-H, bitch. (: Clear conscience. Shall not further elborate what happened. Your reputation in my heart is gone. F****. It's over. (: &i just love my one &only precious cyong who dote &care for me double! (:



Love issit foreverrrrr. Love doesn't last &i will never put much hope on it. (: i've lost trust in everyone. Ofcause not jocelyn &isabel. (:

darling new ORANGE phone.
she got this cause she love orange. (:
taken while working, cause i'm super duper bored.